Unexpected things happen when you do things differently. Because I had already made up my mind to leave the large enterprise software company, I didn't properly consider the promotion offer I got. It might have been the best option, but I had already decided emotionally that I wanted out.
Who knows what would have happened? Nobody!
This time, I'm going to keep an open mind so that I can consider the options as they become available.
What do I think of this? This is too hard. What if I'd be better of not doing it? I can't know, right? I have no motivation to do anything now. Do I really want this?