I'm writing Steps to Freedom, a guide that shows you how to buy back your time so you can fully immerse yourself in what you really want to do, without ever having to dread getting out of bed to go to work.
To be able to write the guide in a the most effective way possible, I think it's a good idea to try to reset myself back to where I was at the end of 2015, which would have been some combination of:
- Disoriented, feeling that my life was all over the place,
- Determined to change that, but
- Unsure where to start
Well, I don't think I can go back to feeling disoriented. Even If I could, I don't think I would want to. The point is not to repeat history, but to learn from it. The system I built is still working, so in order to disorient myself, I would have to undo that system. Or, I suppose I could request a memory wipe.
I wish I was keeping a journal at that time so I could read back to how I was feeling. I want to write the guide that I wish someone had given me.
Luckily, I had defined what I wanted so clearly, and I wanted it to happen so badly that the next step at any point was clear, and I didn't really have to worry about what happened in the middle.
But, there were thoughts that kept coming into my head that were existential threats to the outcome.
What do I think of this?
This is too hard.
What if I'd be better of not doing it? I can't know, right?
I have no motivation to do anything now.
Do I really want this?
I'm sure that these thoughts will come up again. But now, understanding why they occur, I hope I can manage them better.
In the guide, I give you the mental tactics you can use to starve the thoughts that are existential threats to your outcome.
Well, the closest I can get to back where I was at the beginning of round 1 is to reset the numbers.
Even if I do though, the beauty of having built a system that just works is that I don't have to do anything. It just keeps working on it's own.
I could literally not touch it and it'll do its job to completion.
Ehh, so maybe resetting the numbers is not enough. I'll rebuild the system. Besides, it'll probably get better if I do.
Results in my latest post.